I haven't posted here in a long time. In my last post I was preparing for graduation. I began a post about my graduation day, but it sits here unfinished. I will finish it soon, as it was a wonderful day and I don't want to forget any of it. Since then, I've been working and going on with life post-graduation. It's a fairly routine life, really, with a few little things here and there to keep things interesting. I took my jurisprudence exam and became licensed as a school psychologist in the state of Texas, and now I begin the long study process to become a licensed psychologist (which can open up a lot more opportunity down the road, depending on what I want to do in the future. If nothing else, it validates the training I received with my doctorate and can now give to others).
So, if life is so calm, why am I not writing? Well, the moments of self-reflection are not as profound as they were in my pre-doc days, perhaps. And when they are, they are often tied to work-related situations that are challenging to write about in public forums. I'm still trying to figure out how to write about my career in a safe and productive way. I'm also perhaps disappointed when life isn't more blog-worthy. I keep remembering my post from early summer about my goals for my life- hobbies and pursuits now that I would have time and money. I haven't gotten around to much of that yet, and I don't have a great excuse. I did get to spend a wonderful weekend with my family at Disneyland, and I went to the Dallas Arboretum to see the Chuhuly exhibition (and I have lots of pretty pictures of both). Some really nice moments, but a lot of just... living. Living is a blessing, no doubt, I'm just not always sure how to express this chapter of my life.
I guess what it comes down to is that I thought getting my degree would make life fall into place. It would give me confidence, focus, and fulfillment. It did mean a lot to reach that goal, but now that I've settled in I'm still me. I'm learning new things about myself and who I am, who I want to be, and what I want. Some days I am really happy with myself and excited about my life, and others I feel like I'm still a novice in need of direction. I'm trying to get back into the routines that keep me centered and focused on what I want out of life, and writing has always been at the center of that so I'm going to make more time for this little blog. I'm not sure what it's going to look like it my post-doc life, but I hope a few of you will go on the journey with me.
